Author: To my future self

What’s up, snow?!

We just got first snow today, in October. It was unexpected but hey, I’m not complaining. Seeing the snow made me really happy and I’m so thankful for this long weekend we’re getting. I’m going to go to the city and it’s going to be so much fun, finally taking a break from this place. I’ve recently sprained my ankle so I can’t play in any of my soccer matches, which sucks. I miss playing, but I certainly don’t miss losing.

Canzo just submitted her college app yesterday so there’s that.

And all three of us roommates are out of campus this weekend.

Really not much going on here.

But I recently digged out some of my old music and I’ve missed them so much. I don’t even know what to listen to anymore because the mainstream music just isn’t that good. My old music is way better so I’m going to stick with that.

I have a musical performance tomorrow night too and we’re playing a Harry Potter theme song, which will be very cool. Some guy tried to steal the piece from me but nope, of course I didn’t let him have it.

Hope all you New Englanders are staying warm and toasty because a real cold wind is going to blow over soon.

Have a great weekend and don’t do anything too crazy for Halloween! (don’t be a clown)

Peace out.

Yours sincerely,

The Anon



Back from the Dead

I know it’s been a while you folks have heard from me, maybe some of you thought I died. Nah, don’t be melodramatic, that only happens in TV shows. Since it’s been a while, I’ll just give a run down on what’s happened in the past few years:

  1. I didn’t fail sophomore year
  2. I’m still on the JV soccer team

So…yeah. As you can tell, nothing’s really changed.

Moving on. I am now living in the best dorm on campus and I have two new roommates. Let’s just call them Canzo and Indigo. Canzo and I didn’t know what we were expecting since Indigo is a new student, but she’s super friendly and she’s great. Oh, there’s this thing with my history teacher. He’s super intense and it’s been two weeks yet he still doesn’t know my name. He insists that class participation is worth 25% of our grade but honestly, there’s no point in trying if he can’t even tell me apart from the other students.

Okay, here’s this thing I need to get off my chest. Canzo is writing her college apps and there’s one essay she has to write about, which includes art and history. So I begin by explaining how she could combine those two subjects and write about it: Art History. So then she begins to look at me with a dumbfounded look and starts blabbering about how it doesn’t work like that. Me, being me, simply laughed her off. But here’s the theory: apple and pie are two different things, yet you can combine to make apple pie, which includes apples in a pie. Also, peanut butter and jelly are different, yet you can combine them to make peanut butter and jelly (FYI I’ve never tried a PBJ sandwich). My theory then proceeds to stress Canzo out even more and I think I’ve given her enough to handle.

Anyways, we have our first soccer game tomorrow this season and I really hope we win, otherwise coach is going to rain hell on us during practice next week.

Peace out kids.

Yours sincerely,

The Anon

P.S. Here’s a joke for you to entertain on: What did the cat say to the dog? Meow.

You can never procrastinate too hard

So lately I’ve doing nothing after school. I’d go to my practice as usually and then I’d get back and just watch Netflix. I completely ignore my homework until the next morning when it’s due. The problem is with this is that there isn’t a problem. If there was, I’d do my homework the night before. But because of this, I’m literally wasting away my life, which feels better than it sounds. Oh, and I’d stay up until around 2am in the morning scrolling through Tumblr.

I’m kinda dead.

But then not really.

this is the cutest thing ever omg

I think I need a problem to be able to fix my problems. You know what I mean? Such as this: I’ve got 30 minutes until a history test and instead of studying (I haven’t even looked at the material yet), I am writing on my blog. But yet somehow I still ace my tests – only in some subjects though.

Anyways I guess the point of this was just to say hi to you guys, I’m really bored even though I’ve got a load of stuff to do. When I think about doing it, my brain’s just like nah. It’s one of these days.

I knew it was going to be a horrible day when it started snowing in the middle of April. What the heck right, it’s Spring. I guess my area’s just in post-Winter-depression. Such a sad time.

Well time to try studying (more like Tumblr time).


The Anon

P.S. Does this blog even categorize into humor?

I’m back!

Wow, it’s really been a while since I’ve been on here. I’ve been busy with school stuff and I just completely forgot about this blog. Anyways, I might get back to blogging again, who knows.

So recently I had to write this english paper about myself transforming into an animal; I chose a cat. Why? Well I have quite a few funny stories to tell about it, but you might not be interested. Do I care? Nope, not really.

This one time I was studying in the library with my friends and I decided to randomly start making cat meows. Then the librarian walks past and I swear she was looking for a cat because she was looking around on the floor. As soon as she walked past, my friends and I laughed and I told them: “She’s not looking for me, she’s looking for the cat!” As soon as I say that, she’s right there next to me and gives me the glare and tells me to be quiet.

It was so embarrassing and stupid for me to say that but even now it’s just a funny story to tell.

I guess this is my way of saying I’m back.

Anyways leave some stuff in the comments and I will get back to you. I hope you guys are still active and I’m so sorry for leaving you guys!


The Anon

Paper World

(Another extract from my journal.)

July 12th, 2014 (Canadian time zone)

The world is too big. So many faces I’ve seen, but I won’t even remember half of them.

We care so much about how people view us as, we forget to enjoy ourselves in the process. I try, I really do. But it’s been this way for so long, it’s hard to walk away and start again. But once you leave, it’s the best feeling in the world.

Sometimes I can’t help but wonder – am I a paper girl? Are we living in a paper world? We judge everyone’s appearances so much. Some deny it, but it’s something that just can’t be helped. Once we see someone do something we deem as unworthy, we give them an unworthy label, even if we have no idea about the person’s story. It’s programmed into us. And as the older we get, we forget that they’re human too, with thoughts and feelings. We focus on ourselves, because we are foreign, we feel foreign in other people’s shoes; and it’s all just too much for us. We are not fearless, we will never be; but some of us can be courageous.

That’s pretty much it. As you can see, I’m not exactly a happy person in my journal. But then, who are we to judge anyways? We all have our reasons in which we think it’s the right thing, or some of us are just too lost in the moment to realize. We’re to blame anyways, some may disagree, but as long as you’re involved, some part of you is to blame for what has happened. Because without you there, the event may not have occurred as it has. We will never know, and let’s hope we never find out. We cannot hide the truth forever. So do one thing today, tell someone, anyone, one truth that you have been worrying about. Whether it’s big or small, it might just lift up the weight off your shoulders.


The Anon


So we had our first soccer match today and we kicked the other team’s ass 6-0. Our coach told us to stop scoring after 6 to not let them feel horrible. Oops.

Other than that, it’s been pretty chill. Everything is so busy though and I’m a bit pissed at my roommate. Well, not really pissed but annoyed. The room stinks and I’m pretty sure it’s not my fault. Today, when I was on my way to my soccer match, my roommate took my shin guards that I left on the floor but she said it was hers because both of ours look the same. She told me the day before she couldn’t find them but she still insisted it was hers. I honestly wasn’t in the mood to argue so I went to buy another pair. It doesn’t seem like a big deal really, but I guess I’m holding a tiny grudge against that. Hopefully I’ll get over that.

Really there’s been nothing else interesting going on. I mean, it’s school. What’s supposed to happen? (Not anything that would really interest you.)

Yours sincerely,

The Anon

Stressed as Hell

I feel like an awful person. I haven’t blogged in so long. Well, at least in my standards. School is so annoying, during holidays you’re so bored and then when you get back to school you barely have any time to relax. The amount of homework I get at my new school is horrifying. There’s barely any time to complete it. Then add in my soccer practices and meetings, I almost have no free time.

But did I tell you? I’m in the JV soccer team! I’m so proud of myself, but I still got to improve if I don’t want to get cut. It would suck. I wish I have more news to add, but I don’t.

The stupid thing is at my boarding school is that they have this rule called ‘Lights out by 10:30’, which means exactly what it sounds. With the amount of homework we get there’s no way I can finish all of it by 10:30, it’s stressful. I only get back from soccer at 5:30 and I have to shower and eat. I’d like to sleep early, but I have my homework and grades to keep up with. It’s an ongoing conflict and I’m only a freshman! I don’t even want to imagine the work I’d get as a senior.

I actually have this essay I have to write for english right now, so I should really start that.


The Anon

Settling In

I haven’t posted in so long. Sorry about that, I’ve been super busy.

So what happened was we got to New York a day later than we were supposed to. That was because we missed the flight by 20 minutes. The reason for that was the machine stopped working because we were (literally) a minute late and we had to line up for assistance. By the time it was our turn we were too late.

I love New York at night.

Moving on. 

Lady Liberty herself.

New York was everything I imagined it to be. It was just amazing. I recognized so many places from movies (friends with benefits) and tv shows (gossip girl). We went shopping every day from day to night, no stopping. My legs were about to fall off and I’m pretty sure I left my dad broke (oops!). We watched a broadway show (Pippin) on the last night and the atmosphere was incredible. Although the start was great, it went downhill after the intermission. I wasn’t too happy with that, but it was still good, I almost cried. (No kidding. I always wanted to go to New York and watch a broadway performance.)


Now I’m in school. The school’s breathtaking, but I don’t know anyone here. You see, I’m not a very sociable person. I’d rather have people approach me than the other way around and that’s not going to happen. I’m 30 minutes away from dinner time and my parents are out shopping. I really have no one to sit with, which is terrible. I know I should go and meet some people but I just can’t be bothered. But my roommate’s moving in tomorrow morning so hopefully that’ll get me somewhere.

Other than that, the school’s pretty amazing and I really love it, which is a great thing. So I’ll keep you guys updated on what happens, I’ve got a busy day tomorrow. Right now, I’m just going to try and make some friends. (I’ll probably end up scaring them off.) Oh, and it’s super hot in my dorm and there’s no AC or fan. Who knew it was so hot in Connecticut in September?

Out for now.



The Anon

Back To School

Oh my god, I am freaking out. School starts next week and I have absolutely nothing prepared. Not even a checklist. And I leave in 3 days on a plane to New York. I still have my medical papers for a physician to fill in! I’d like to think I’m under stressing out because it sounds a lot worse than it is. I’m going to save my 500 page summer reading for the plane, which sounds like a good idea.

This is how I feel right now, but not as cute.

I’m sweating right now and it’s only 16 degrees. I’m being very paranoid, I tell you.

But the good thing is that I’ve managed to write two songs in a day, which usually takes me weeks to do that because I tend to drag it out. Pretty much, that’s the only thing I’m proud of.

Have you ever opened the fridge and it’s empty. Apart from a few juice cartons and food that required to be cooked? That’s me right now. I offered to go grocery shopping with my mom (I really have nothing to do.) so I could get food I like, but then she said that I wasn’t allowed to get “unhealthy foods”. What the flip (okay she was being totally reasonable), but can’t you see I’m dying here? No, probably not. I mean, I look pretty healthy.

Aside from that, my dad just won’t stop yelling. Especially when he’s frustrated, which leads to him losing his temper. I swear, he’s like a time-bomb just waiting to be ticked off.

Okay, whatever. I’m so over it. I have bigger problems to worry about. But I’m going to eat some cherries right now. I love cherries. (See mom? I’m eating healthy.) No, but seriously. I actually do.



The Anon

Sisterhood/Brotherhood of the World Bloggers Award

Wow, so I got nominated by Daniela, so a big thank you to her! Go check out her blog too, she’s super dedicated to it!

Rules of this award

1- Thank the blogger that nominated you and link back to their site.
2- Post the awards logo on your blog.
3- Answer the 10 questions you’ve been set.
4- Set 10 new questions for your nominees.
5- Nominate 10 bloggers

So my answers are:

1- Favourite clothing store?

I don’t have one, honestly all teenage clothing stores are really similar. But if I had to say, I’d choose maybe Hollister (because the smell is amazing) and Forever 21 because my best friend and me used to go there all the time, try on tons of clothes and just buy one from the pile.

2- Piece of clothing you couldn’t live without?

Undergarments. Duh. How uncomfortable would that be? 

3- Celebrity crush?

Dylan O’brien. He is King.

4- Favourite summer tune?

Currently it’s Flawless by The Neighbourhood.

5- Most embarrassing moment of the year?

When I ran across the school field naked. (If you’re thinking ‘really?’ It didn’t happen.) I don’t have a mortifying one I can think of, but I’ll go with the time when my best friend started screaming my name all over the shopping mall. (I found it hilarious actually.)

6- flats or heels?


7- What made you start your blog?

Me, I did. Well, of course, I mean who else would start my blog? No, but really I write in my journal a lot so I thought, why not share my feelings on the world wide internet, maybe I could be an inspiration.

8- Knees for boobs or boobs for knees?

Penises for fingers. Just joking, but me and my friend had this inside joke where I would ask her if she’d rather have penises for fingers or fingers for penises. Don’t question it.

9- Worst quality in a person?

The point where a person wants attention so much she/he’ll do anything for.

10- Favourite piece of jewelry?

I don’t like jewelry in general. They’re very annoying to maintain and then you have to keep track of them.

Now I’m going to nominate (I’m very aware it says ‘Sisterhood’, but I also have a ‘brotherhood’ of blogs and in no specific order):

Not Ours To Change

The Bloggess

The Howling Fantogs

sothisismyblog (I am allowed to nominate you, right?)

Commas and Ampersands

Highschool 101

A Pretty Penny

(I realize the rules say I have to nominate 10, but I only have 7. So whoops. “Rules are made to be broken”, but just don’t go killing someone now.)

The questions you have answer are:

1. What makes you happy?

2. Why do you blog?

3. Coke or Pepsi? (Choose Coke, Pepsi tastes like poop.)

4. Favorite go-to fast food restaurant. (Starbucks isn’t fast food by the way.)

5. If you could experience one day of fame, would you do it?

6. What TV shows you currently watch?

7. What’s the reason for/the story behind your blog name?

8. What’s one thing you would change if you could go back in time?

9. If you could wish for anything, what would it be? (You can’t wish for infinite wishes, greedy kids.)

10. Which one is better: having the ability to become invisible or to be able to fly?

Good luck with the questions!


The Anon